Today is the day I have been waiting for.... Today is January 14, 2011. I have fought the urge all week to not sneek and take the test early. Why -- Because Mr. M is out of town for work and comes home today. I knew I wouldn't be able to contain the excitement if I knew and he didn't. Last night after the gym I went to the drug store and got all the "Goods". Of course I was trying to be sly and not let Mr. M know what I was up to bc I had the PERFECT way to to tell him. So when he is calling me on my way home and I am avoiding his calls he is asking all these questions and I am thinking - Stay cool - you got this. Inside I am freaking out that he is going to figure it out before I can tell him. Whew not today. Friday morning I get up and go to the bathroom...... YES positive. So I take this precious little test that says we are having a baby and I lay it on his pillow on his side of the bed. I head off to work and just wait. On the inside I want to explode with joy but I need to stay calm and collected until I see Mr. M.
Mr. M flew home early that day and had been working at home when I got there. I had heard nothing from him in reference to any BABIES. I went to the bedroom and the bed had been slept in but still nothing about the BABY. How can this be? He comes upstairs and he is sitting right there with it behind him. By this time I am acting completely unlike myself and he knows it. As he is sitting there on the bed, the hormones have taken over my brain and made me a crazy woman. I am thinking "how can he possibly not know what he is supposed to do to figure out that we are pregnant?" I then go on some random rampage and find the test on the pillow and throw it at him frustrated that he couldn't read my mind. At that moment his entire life started going in slow motion and 10 minutes later it registered -- I am going to be a Dad!!!
I do not have a face to see,
Or put inside a frame.
I do not have soft cheeks to kiss,
I don't yet have a name.
You can't yet hold my tiny hands,
Nor whisper in my ear.
It's still too soon to sing a song,
Or cuddle me so near.
But all will change come September,
That’s when they say I'm due.
I'm your new daughter or son;
I can't wait till I meet you.
All I ask between now and then
Is your patience while I grow.
I promise I'll be worth the wait,
Because of all the love we'll know.
So what I have to give you now,
Is a wish to you from me.
I cannot wait to be a part
Of this wonderful family.